i've had two trains of thought running through my spiritual life of late. the first one comes as i've been meditating on psalm 27, 45, and 84. psalm 84 says, "how lovely are your dwelling places, oh Lord of hosts." Lovely, not meaning "fair to look upon" but meaning "amiable, pleasant, beloved of many, attractive to the human soul."

i find, the more i look into the face of the Lord, the more completely enchanting he becomes. and like psalm 84 says, the places where his presence dwells have been loved and adored by humans for thousands of years, simply because his presence was there. and here i am, in the year 2002, with his precious presence in my life. i desire nothing else.

the second train of thought, i've been desiring to do more, to go further for God. sure, i moved into a semi-unsafe neighborhood for Him, following his call. whatever. i am still so comfortable in my life. my heart is stirred by the examples i have in my life of those who have been willing to surrender their lives, their comfort, their time, their futures to the radical plans of the God... a couple who took a heroin addict into their home to detox. a white student who moved into cabrini green housing projects in order to reach the kids. a man who visits the prison on a regular basis to reach those inside. a couple who have given their lives to serve the country of mozambique and have touched more souls than i ever will in my lifetime if i am not willing to give up my comfortable life for the sake of God's plans. however, i desire not some grand story, Lord. i want whatever you want. just show me. send me.

posted by Chaddo 8/27/2002 11:26:00 PM